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celeste_noelaniCeleste
Life path Number: 5
June 27, 2004
You have the opportunity to get much closer to others today, Celeste. This is a 9-Day, and building strong and beneficial relationships can often be the focus of this vibration. For you, Five, spending social time is apt to be one of your most favorite activities; however, getting close to someone can be another story. This vibration can help you to overcome your resistance to forming intimate connections. Try to make stronger commitments in your life, Five, with the encouragement of this energy.
I suppose the whole "resistance to forming intimate connections" thing is true for me, but then again who isn't at least a wee bit resistant? Let's face it, people are mostly not worth it. Not to be mean, not to be a downer, but how many times have you lost your ass in a relationship (romantic, friendly, familial) because you're trying to let down those walls, let someone in, be more open and trusting and bullshit and whether you're horribly mistaken and the person is a true wanker or things just don't work out for not working out's sake, you still have to deal with the fact that you gave it up again only to be wrong again and now if you ever want to find "that thing" with someone else you have to start from square one and take a big fat chance on a big fat stranger.
No thanks, I'm just not that into being let down.
In all honesty, I'm no different than anyone else. I want all the touchy-feely garbage that love (romantic, mostly) brings along with it. I want it, bad, baybee. B-b-b-bad. But it takes a long time to get to know someone and before you're even a third of the way there you're already planning your next Thanksgiving with them or convincing yourself that this is love, baby, pure love or that tattooing someone's name on your hind end is a really, really good idea. But the fact of the matter is, odds are this isn't going to work out any better than anything else in your stupid little life or in anyone else's stupid little life so why fucking push it? Why fucking try to let down those walls or to be more trusting or to even care about anyone if it's not a natural sort of a thing? You either share your life story with someone and have a good cry-and-bond session with them or you don't drink the Jaeger that night and go home early and lonely and depressed just once more because it doesn't matter anyway. Sooner or later you're bound to meet someone worthwhile and you won't have to push it so hard and you won't have to "try" to have a meaningful conversation because you've had them all already without even realizing it, and holy crap when did you get here, Mister or Miz Fantabulous?
In the meantime, so what? So be superficial. Have a good time. Don't waste your time or your breath trying to make best friends out of drinking buddies or boyfriends out of sex dreams. If it happens, if it's real, it's going to happen because you have lots in common and care about one another, not because you served yourself up raw on a silver platter and asked to get your guts torn out of you yet again.
Life path Number: 5
June 27, 2004
You have the opportunity to get much closer to others today, Celeste. This is a 9-Day, and building strong and beneficial relationships can often be the focus of this vibration. For you, Five, spending social time is apt to be one of your most favorite activities; however, getting close to someone can be another story. This vibration can help you to overcome your resistance to forming intimate connections. Try to make stronger commitments in your life, Five, with the encouragement of this energy.
I suppose the whole "resistance to forming intimate connections" thing is true for me, but then again who isn't at least a wee bit resistant? Let's face it, people are mostly not worth it. Not to be mean, not to be a downer, but how many times have you lost your ass in a relationship (romantic, friendly, familial) because you're trying to let down those walls, let someone in, be more open and trusting and bullshit and whether you're horribly mistaken and the person is a true wanker or things just don't work out for not working out's sake, you still have to deal with the fact that you gave it up again only to be wrong again and now if you ever want to find "that thing" with someone else you have to start from square one and take a big fat chance on a big fat stranger.
No thanks, I'm just not that into being let down.
In all honesty, I'm no different than anyone else. I want all the touchy-feely garbage that love (romantic, mostly) brings along with it. I want it, bad, baybee. B-b-b-bad. But it takes a long time to get to know someone and before you're even a third of the way there you're already planning your next Thanksgiving with them or convincing yourself that this is love, baby, pure love or that tattooing someone's name on your hind end is a really, really good idea. But the fact of the matter is, odds are this isn't going to work out any better than anything else in your stupid little life or in anyone else's stupid little life so why fucking push it? Why fucking try to let down those walls or to be more trusting or to even care about anyone if it's not a natural sort of a thing? You either share your life story with someone and have a good cry-and-bond session with them or you don't drink the Jaeger that night and go home early and lonely and depressed just once more because it doesn't matter anyway. Sooner or later you're bound to meet someone worthwhile and you won't have to push it so hard and you won't have to "try" to have a meaningful conversation because you've had them all already without even realizing it, and holy crap when did you get here, Mister or Miz Fantabulous?
In the meantime, so what? So be superficial. Have a good time. Don't waste your time or your breath trying to make best friends out of drinking buddies or boyfriends out of sex dreams. If it happens, if it's real, it's going to happen because you have lots in common and care about one another, not because you served yourself up raw on a silver platter and asked to get your guts torn out of you yet again.
